I've been waiting for something in my life to change, but haven't really realised that it should be me! I've been planning on so many things and I just see them all falling apart... the one thing that I really need goes bad, like a rotten apple. I'm just so down these days, nothing willl seem to lift me up again, I'm just tired, and wish that I could simply stop at once, say "God, I'm just really tired of all this hassle", I wanna stop now. But it doesn't seem to work like that. Life could be so much more fucked up, I know... but I'm tired, and it seems that this is what's life all about...